Self-sabotage and shiny shoes

I've been meaning to sit down and think and write for the last few days, but life has begun to get in the way.

Since Wednesday's weigh in it's been a difficult few days. I know this goes against last week's mind set video but I really just lost motivation for a few days. Old habits began to creep back in and I began to sabotage myself and this journey.

It really came to a head on Thursday evening. My lovely hubby was out for the evening at a work end of financial year party. A slap-up meal and free drinks. I skipped my step class for a drink with a friend, and got home late and starving. This wasn't a complete disaster - I got home and made my 12WBT pizza for dinner. But the old habits began slipping back in as I polished off the pack of prosciutto whilst waiting the 8 minutes it too for my pizza to cook.

I then managed to consume a ridiculous amount of snacky food throughout the evening. I didn't enjoy any of it - I was just emotionally eating from habit. And I was so cross with myself. But the crosser I got, the more I ate.

I still felt grumpy the next morning, when I woke up. But I got straight back onto the diet, and even managed to avoid all the tempting food that was offered at our work awayday.

But still, I felt grumpy and cross and was very irritable with work colleagues.

This pattern continued until I left work at about 5:30. I went straight from work to the closest shopping centre, and bought a beautiful new pair of shoes! A camel coloured pair of healed boots. And they were on sale - 50% off!

Finally I felt all the stress and tension from the last few days melt away. It didn't matter that I hadn't lost what I'd been hoping for. It didn't matter that I'd fallen off the wagon and had let the exercise slide for a limited time. It didn't matter that I'd been grumpy with everyone in sight.

I'VE GOT NEW BOOTS BOOTS!

So finally I was ready to start back and have a positive weekend!

And I have had a wonderful weekend. Footy, drinks and a beautiful treat meal date on Saturday, followed by Harry Potter 5 at the cinema today. All my food for the week has been bought and I've prepared all I can in advance. I haven't managed to exercise this weekend but I'm all set to get back to eating perfectly and exercising tomorrow. And all because I have beautiful new boots.

And to top it all off, my sneaky peek at the scales this morning showed 93.5 - my 10 kilo mark! All is right with the world!